‘Sacred Sounding’ workshop – Panama
I sat. Soft grass beneath me, warm Caribbean winds kissed my face as I gathered in a circle with a small group of women. I was there for the women’s womb workshop, and I had no idea what that actually meant or entailed but I was intrigued. I’ll be honest; I was uncomfortable at first. Not with the exercises (meditative deep breathing, focusing on the each chakra up, using visualizations and sound; also four direction prayers) but with myself.
In the everyday world, I often operate with my masculine foot forward (extreme tomboy straight out of the womb), hiding my feminine features and attitudes because I desired to attract women, divert men’s attention, and it is comfortable for me to be that… so here I was in a workshop with several beautifully powerful feminine women and me in my trucker hat, strong broad shoulders and board shorts. As I breathed through each chakra and felt my own vibrations and sounds I gained further insight into my unconscious divine feminine.
Nalaya, the facilitator of the workshop held a safe space and a warm example of strength and softness… one I truly admired. I was allowed the time to really be and feel what was going on with me. Nalaya created a space of sisterhood between us women, who before this workshop were mostly strangers to me and that aided in my openness with the workshop. It was only a couple months previous to this experience that I had become aware of the lack of sisters in my life, most of the women were either other masculine women that I would feel more compelled to call brothers than sisters, or women that flirted and saw me differently because of my sexuality. It was exciting to see this awareness emerge from within. And as I heard the drum, I sang to each of the four directions my song and each time I turned I could see and feel my feminine energy wiggling around inside, telling me it was okay to be expressed and explored; that I was safe and any wounds from my past would and could be healed.
It was time to forgive and to balance the energy within. My feminine energy looks different than most peoples but it is Me and I feel strong within myself because of it. I am very grateful to the women that were apart of the workshop and to Nalaya for showing me what sisterhood looks and feels like. I would encourage any person to take this workshop, there is freedom in being given time and intentional space just to sit and be amongst sisters.
Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude.